I like this current medication im on because it has an effect on me. I feel drowsy and numb when i take it and though this sounds absolutely emo and suicidal, i like that feeling. Theres something very comforting about it. At the same time, im afraid of consistently taking it because i dont want my body to become immune to its effects.

I realised i forgot to mention the short meeting i had with beryl the other day. I have to say, it was indeed an appearance check. She reminded me that my hair was growing like a mob and i told her how i cannot bear to keep layering my hair to keep it neat and tidy so ive kinda accepted my mob for whatever it is. i really dont wanna waste my time bothering about my hair when its never gonna listen to me. She made some noises with her throat and said something about at least keeping her hair presentable. Then she saw the scar on my thigh that she could take secondary responsibility for (haha) and told me how cool it looked. One day, id make her look super cool too. HAHAHA it was good to finally see her cos she had fried rice which i so kindly helped her finish.

I also went out with Sham yesterday. Basically town was overpopulated with slow walking people i wanted to inject my fist into (their HEAD). And i cant tell you how much i enjoyed looking at your one leg red, one leg black skinny jeans. Kinda reminds me of this autograph book poem that goes, one leg up one leg down, one leg go to chinatown. hahaha didnt shop much. My money went to a couple of bottled drinks, taka noodles, subway, beef stick, karaage drumlet and chicken thigh.

Today i collected 3 rolls of negatives and just looking at them under my bedroom light makes me very happy. Sheila and i met up for lunch (she very generously top up whatever i couldnt afford!) and visited the library today. I made reservations for Adobe Flash (which i am going to attempt to master!) and the Grafik journal. Hopefully they arrive soon!

Anyway i was just talking about runny nose medicine.

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