Here i am at turtle speed but finally catching up with majority of the world as i acknowledge the new year. Strangely, i have no difficulties penning down the right digits when i write my dates. Normally i start getting it right towards March. My body's clearly moving on faster than my mental state. I feel that we are eternally in a race to get somewhere. Fully charged at the beginning of the year, slowing down in our pace as we approach thanksgiving. I was still at the latter when the universe approached 2009. Trying to absorb all that i've learnt, received and lost. I'm afraid if i moved too fast i'd lose and forget everything that has gotten me here. Getting high every week was surprisingly fun before the throwing up, reaching home 7am 8am, falling asleep on shoulders, fighting (with determination to win) over and over again with my best friend, falling in and out of love, times spent staring into space not figuring. I think i have began to live.
Things were looking grim one hour into the new year when Jing's granny passed away. After the wake came my uncle's death. Took his life diving one storey above his flat. If there is a song to sum up all of that, a song to remind me all that i've felt.

I Still Remember. So this new year officially starts for me on the 13th of January. Forgive and not forget the good, the tough, the pain. Everyday is a brand new chance to be more alive than ever.

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